He further revealed that there were times his bodyguards had to sneek into his room, just to be sure he was still breathing as a result of how he consumed hard drugs.
In his words;
“There was a sense of still yearning for more. It was like I had all this success and it was still like: I’m still sad, and I’m still in pain. And I still have these unresolved issues.
And I thought all the success was going to make everything good. And so for me, the drugs were a numbing agent to just continue to get through,”.
“And then you’re this young angry person who had these big dreams, and then the world just jades you and makes you into this person that you don’t want to be. And then you wake up one day and your relationships are f—– up and you’re unhappy and you have all this success in the world, but you’re just like: Well, what is this worth if I’m still feeling empty inside?”
About his marriage, he said, “The first year of marriage was really tough,” he said, “because there was a lot, going back to the trauma stuff.
We’re just creating these moments for us as a couple, as a family, that we’re building these memories. And it’s beautiful that we have that to look forward to.
Every time we mess up, He’s picking us back up every single time. That’s how I view it. And so it’s like, ‘I made a mistake. I won’t dwell in it. I don’t sit in shame. But it actually makes me want to do better.”